This weekend i went on a road trip to big bear and enjoyed my company and surroundings.
But right after i came back, things are the same, nothing's different.
Reality has not changed. Problems are still there. and my life is no where near magnificent.
Its so weird how somethings leave such a good feeling for a short while. Such a transient state.
Life is a cupcake if its bad you can't put icing on top to make it better, i mean you can but once the icing is gone the cupcake is still bad and if you consume it you might get food poisoning or just a bad case of diarrhea. As people that's we tend to do, we tend to put icing over everything bad in our life, to cover it up.. But we become disappointed because once the icing runs out the bad cupcake is still there, it still haunts us.
In order to get rid of our problems we need to tackle it deep in the inside rather than just the out.
I'm so guilty of putting icing on my bad cupcakes. Mistakes after mistakes i cover it up i'm too afraid to truly fix the problem because of fear, of things happening repeatingly, of me thinking that i'm not good enough because i cant fix it.
Because i'm so afraid to tackle the problem deep within, i tend to hurt others emotionally and i hurt myself emotionally.. it's an exhausting feeling to not able to face my problems. i tend to run away.. it's so hard for me to be able to open up to people about this, dang im so glad that i am a blogger! hahah. *sigh
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